The tour began in a small resort town called Bognor Regis. Word seemed to spread quickly that I was really quiet to David Gest and the others – I am. This seemed to be a cause for concern amongst some as I was told, thinking I might be a bit too ‘standoffish.’ Say what? Life is always a bit like elementary school isn’t it? This realization somewhat surprised and saddened me initially. I haven’t been reprimanded for my personality since I was growing up – and I’m obviously quite grown. No one likes feeling like they’re under a microscope. There’s a comfort level of course when you’re around people you really know and those you’re beginning to know. Some personalities will never mix, but on a job you roll with it. The discussion of my quiet demeanor took me back to being a little girl, often chastised by one of my grandmother’s for being ‘quiet’ which she for some odd reason equated to being sneaky and up to no good. The verbal abuse was unforgettable, when I was simply in my own world creating poetry, playing with my dolls, reading and other solitary acts that I found joy in. In school, I was always quiet as well, studious which some called ‘stuck up’ which caused me to be bullied often. Many can relate to this I’m sure. It’s as if being a profanity laced loudmouth, vulgar and crass somehow makes a person more ‘real.’ What I know is quiet types seem to unjustly throw people off with red flags of mistrust and with a hint of disdain. Chatter. I’m friendly though reserved, quick to laugh, an observer of others, thoughtful, can be moody, enjoy being in my own space literally and figuratively – zen. That said, when pushed I do have another side that will go off, speak up and will not take crap from anyone among other lifelong traits. ‘Don’t let the smooth taste fool you.” That’s ‘real’ for me and has always been the case. To each their own. Quiet is not a sign of weakness, to the contrary. I was raised a certain way, to carry myself a certain way and to act like a lady with class. As an artist – I’m a professional, if I make friends cool – if not cool. My priority is always to be great onstage giving 1000% that’s what I love. If you can have fun with people you enjoy it’s even better. When mentoring young people I say watch how you carry yourself, respect yourself and others – perceptions and impressions go a long way. Sometimes I think the term ‘just be yourself’ needs a bit of revision to include ‘but always show a bit of class, intelligence, respect and consideration for others.’ As my Mom always says ‘There’s a time and a place for everything.’
Personality microscopes aside – this is an incredible concert tour to be a part of.